AuthorName: Rick Robinson
Rating: Contains adult content
Copyright Status: Copyrighted
Louisa explains her decision to cease taking her medication to Frederick.
Age Range: 20s - Late, 30s - Early
Dialects: Standard American
I'm not your slave, I don't do what you tell me. God! Fuck you! Don't...View Full Monologue Text
I'm not your slave, I don't do what you tell me. God! Fuck you! Don't feel sorry for me! You know what these pills are? Huh? You know what these fucking pills are, besides Belxenar or whatever? They're make Louisa easy to live with pills. They're "calm down, Louisa" pills. They're fucking make Louisa content and happy in her bullshit life and her bullshit boyfriend and her mediocre talent and not question who she is why she is, or why she isn't greater, why the way she sees the world is so much different than how everyone else sees the world pills. You take them!
(she hurls them at him)
You take them! And you can see the last beautiful thing you ever made get smaller and smaller until you're not the principal architect of the matchmaking system, but someone ordinary, someone who doesn't say these beautiful weird things, but ordinary. A pale imitation of someone like you. You think any of the things that have happened to us would have happened had I been taking those pills? You think that I would have been on top of you, with you aching inside of me? Nothing that we did was polite or normal or part of a pattern, it was what it was because I was me. I was me. I don't ask you to be someone else. I would never ask you to be someone else - would I?